Dealing with myself &

I Don’t know how to explain it, but my Hearts broken again. This Girl led me on, and she seemed so perfect and wonderful, but she lied to me and played with my heart. I just want to be happy with someone who wouldn’t just bail so quickly or still have feelings for their ex.That Or Being happy with myself. i feel so lonely though. i cant stand it.

I’m Supposed to be going to his wrestling match tonight, but i decided not to.its not that I’m mad at him or anything. i just don’t want to go out. i feel disgusting. i want to hide myself.