Dealing with myself &

The Past Couple Of Days I’ve Been So Busy with relatives and it’s finally catching up with me. I’m Exhausted and I’m achy all over. I Don’t know why but whenever i have days where i do nothing, im either really productive with my art projects or insanely irratable and impatient. I Wish i could get myself to relax. three more days until the busyness starts all over again though.I need a Nap.

Society has focused everyone’s drive on Loosing weight, being skinny, being Perfect.

I Want To Focus on “Well Being” And A Healthy Life, and that would be all the perfection i need. and it is asking for a lot. and I’m still trying hard, but i know not enough. i need a kick to drive my motivation.

But In the mean time im going to try focusing on whats more important now, my mental health, becuase everything is so much easier with a clear head. i need the stress to go away or i will explode.

Tomorrow i want to turn things around, like they used to be, still awkwardly social, but in my mind and body; feeling better.

I’m going to sign up for another gym membership so i can get healthier and i hope my mom will actually help me go through with this.i need this.

and thankgoodness this isnt my revolution, becuase i cant give up on this. i miss my health.