Am I The Only Cat On Tumblr with an interlocking issue with depression and chronic pain?
all these guys on the “depression” or “suicidle” tag are like. zomg you guys dis blood feels so good. yeah. Youre Posts are not helpful.Personally, i dont cut, becuase hey. thats nasty and if youre ganna ask for help do it, not slit your wrists becuase no one can see your “cry for help” when its covered by your asking alexander bracelets from hottopic.
And On the Chronic Pain its like; You guys make legit sence lets be best friends.but then again all the people that seem so lovely live hundreds and thousands of miles away from me.. that or have this ridiculouse amount of hope that comes from who knows where and it doesnt seem to be a depression/suicide issue. just a frustration issue. which is so reasonable
I Dont mean to offend but like- i just dont understand. i feel stuck in the middle almost. I Dont Know where to go, and i have been seeing a therapist, just not every week like a should becuase shes “booked up” and my friends arent friends at all theyre all asswholes. the other night one of my “friends” said i have a reasonable reason to commit suicide. and it doesn’t help when in the back of my mind i have the memories of the words from dad and everyone else ” you’ll never make it in high school” “You’re going to be in bed for the rest of your life” “you’re lying for attention” “go and kill yourself already” “i don’t blame you you have a reasonable reason to commit suicide.” “its all in your head.” etc.
i Just don’t want to go to another mental hospital again because i didn’t belong there; a bunch of stoners with behavioral problems. with no endometriosis friendly food. Its funny. when you scream so much in pain and the REAL crazy people who are in for attempted murder think that YOURE the crazy one.
I Just. is This Normal? To Be So Stressed, Worked Up and Depressed? I Just- I Feel So Alone. I Wish It Would Stop.