Dealing with myself &

I need to go vegan again for a little while. I feel outrageously sick and unhealthy. Yet I didn’t eat meat today. Weird. Well, I have to go vegan/raw/not anything you get premade or in a box. How do you say…. Healthy?

Can everyone just be Vegan now? I am really sick of always being pissed at everyone.

Lol Tell Me About It. When You’re Like me, Every Vegan Brags About Or Complains About Meals And Equal Mammal Equality,& How Easy It is To Eat That Way. When One like Myself Has To Avoid what you already do, plus Soy, Processed (rice, almond, etc) Milks, Caffeine And Gluten. Try That.  Because I Have No Idea Why Someone Would Want To Deprive themselves of Nutrients. Im Sick Of Being Pissed At Everyone For being Tolerant of “Vegans” at restaurants but once i come along, Ope, No. Nothing for you. I’m Sick Of Being On A FORCED Restricted Diet.

This Past week has been so stressful, like all the other weeks, but this one.. wasn’t a “normal” stressful week. i was in the E.R for two nights in a row, one to visit a friend on suicide watch and the other because of a pain flare up.  Then of course finals are coming up and I’m no where ready for them, I’m still struggling to catch up in all of my school work. I’m also Pmsing so I’m constantly eating, convincing myself that I’m no good and i don’t deserve anything and ive been very sexually frustrated as well…because that’s what hormones do i guess. oh, and as well as additional pain from the gut. its just been so stressfull. and ive been thinking so much and thinking usually isnt a good thing for me..

but on a lighter note i tried hemp milk today and it was really.. odd. i got the same reaction from it as i did when i first tried soy milk… but hopefully once i get used to it it’ll treat my tummy with care. and my diet has been fucked up, ive been slipping up, so Ive had some cookie dough here and some mac n cheese there and just a lot of dairy gluten and egg products which aren’t good for me… (my excuse is PMS cravings..) but Ive decided that I’m going to go vegan for a week again or so so i can get back on the healthy-not as much pain- diet that i need to be on so i can function some. because honestly, Ive been putting shit into my body. i regret it.

I Just hope i dont make anymore stupid decisions becuase even though ive been so stressed about school, health should be my main focus, even though it hasnt been lately. i need to get control back into my life becuase i just feel like a mess. i need to clean up my act. but im not sure how well that would help with my stress

Im just tired. i have only 10 more days left of school… and hopefully my stress will calm done once its finished. i need, a relaxing productive summer this year.

Being A Gluten Free Vegan. People Ask me Why i am, I Do It For My Health, I Do Not care About The Animals, I’m Not Trying To Save Them, Before I Do, Id Rather Save My Self first. I Am Allergic To A List Of Things and My Diet and health has been so Hard To Manage. I’m Not better And I’m Still Sick, i know i have to be more patient, But This Is So Stressful and Difficult.I’m Really Not Sure how I’m Going to be Able to do this for the rest of my life with no Support and Encouragement. Its So Difficult, to Do This Alone.

At School,I went down to the nurse and asked her to call my mom so she can pick me up from school because of these awful stomach cramps. These kids were thereand asked me if i was sick i nodded and they said “i hope you get better”.I Smiled Politely and said thank you. i know one of the kids, Justin, has awful chronic headaches. The other kid just thought i was faking. but i don’t think either of them are aware of my situation. once i got home. i realized i cant get better because there isn’t a cure to endometriosis.

Diet tends to help allot especially with this and IBS (which i also have) . I Have Been Successfully been on A Gluten Free Vegan Diet for a week now, I’m really proud of myself. but I’m not so sure if this will help me dramatically since I’ve tried this in the past

Ive Made It. Ive Been A Gluten Free Vegan For Two Days and I’m Praying that I can continue. This Is Such a Challenge. But Its My Only Way For Feeling Better. I Will Overcome And Dominate My Diet. && I Will Be Successful.

The little things in life are worth living for; I have discovered another today; SO delicious dairy-free, coconut ice-cream, via mocha almond fudge.life’s been a treat recently

I’m failing Again. i wish it Were easier. because Being Sick is So Hard Too Deal with && you would think that would be enough to get my motivation going.

*Random Depression Leads To Random Cooking with Occasional Tears. Everything is so challenging and I’m Constantly Crying For Help. I Want This All To Stop.

Is Really Difficult. i need help.

And Links to recipes for Gluten Free Vegan Friendly Cake And Dessert recipes For My Birthday this Year. Any Suggestions?

Gluten Free, Egg Free, Dairy Free Sugar Cookies.

I’m Following the recipes to “Gluten Free Dreams”  i hope this diet works well for me. otherwise I’m bored and cooking for nothing. and i hope these cookies are worth my while. because I’m craving some cookies.the end.

And They Were Disquesting && Made Me Sick. The End Of Part 2.