Lately Ive been a lot more active, going out more and getting my ass out of bed. and last night i was scared it was going to end. i had a pain flare up, and i just couldn’t do anything, i was so overwhelmed and oh my goodness. Ive been scared lately. really scared. but for other things besides my participation in my own life. I’m scared that special person is going to slip through my fingers and I’m scared of being near my dad, whom openly confessed his homophobia last night. and Im just so scared that no one will like me for who i am, and not my illness. because I’m just scared that IBS and Endo will take over my life again and leave me bed bound.Im Scared of Being Alone. Being scared, is such a stressful thing.