1. Frick.

    Today Is Going To Be One Of Those days, where i hide in my room all day. I Really feel awful today, my chest-esophagus area feels like there’s a gaping hole of emptiness, and my abdomen hurts too…just everything. I Hate chronic pain i really do. My Body’s an active bomb, & my state of mind is always sore. But that’s not the worst part, its sunny outside and i really shouldn’t be this lazy. when i woke up i wanted to work out and i wanted to get out from the covers. i really should but my body tells me otherwise. I Don’t know. I’m Afraid if i do go out and conquer the day, that cramping and pain will be creeping up behind me and overwhelm me. I’m Not in the mood for this to put me down, i want to be in control for once.

     
  2. I Cannot explain how hard it is being me. every single day is a challenge and the stress is exhausting and ridiculous. I’m surprised Ive came this far. People tell me all the time how Strong i am, but i want to know why, because i feel so vulnerable.