Dealing with myself &

Is Happening Tomorrow. Well- today In About 8-9 hours. My Sister and Mom and I Are Going. I Have A Bit Of An Obsession with Charity things.

Why I’m Doing It; To Get out of the house, but also, Back in October 05-06? I Had A Tarsal Coalition at Shriners, and without the surgery i wouldn’t have been able to walk. The Doctors there said it was a miracle, how quickly i recovered the flexibility back into my foot, and how i didn’t need the proceeding surgery that is usually done for other patients. and without that, i wouldn’t  have been be able to do cross country this year. I Want To Give Back to The People That Have Been So Helpful To Me back in the Day.

The Dilemma; The Last Charity Walk i Did, Was The March of Dimes (Funding For Premature babies). Which was April 16th 2011. The Day My Old Friend Committed Suicide.

Tomorrow may be emotionally difficult for me, but I’m excited anyways.I’m Considering running it. and Hopefully, My Body Will Be Up For It.

I Would Be The One To Miss 11:11 on 11/11/11. But I’m Done Wishing Anyways. Ive Got Enough False Hope To Last Me Awhile & I’m Better Off Just Living In The Moment.

But If I Had, I Would’ve Wished For A Happy And Healthier Life. Its Far Fetched from what I’m living Now, but I Think There’s A Possibility It Can Happen.

Maybe.

I Cannot explain how hard it is being me. every single day is a challenge and the stress is exhausting and ridiculous. I’m surprised Ive came this far. People tell me all the time how Strong i am, but i want to know why, because i feel so vulnerable.