Dealing with myself &

So Today I Kind of found out what my treatment plan will be- for at least the next few months. New Medication, Physical therapy and Cognitive behavioral therapy (not because i misbehave, but because my anxiety and depression is BAD) all starting at the same time

This wont start until the end of the month which is kind of disappointing because i thought it would take effect sooner. But I’m excited to switch the meds I’m on now for the fibro. Right now I’m on some stuff (i don’t know the name, because embarrassingly enough i’m not “allowed” or “trusted” enough to handle my own meds) the side effects are having “Vivid Dreams” which has been hell for me, since i usually have nightmares, and now they’ve been just more realistic. that and it hasn’t helped my joint pain much at all even though the results for other patients have been fantastic. (Usually i only experience side effects of meds, never what they’re supposed to do) They’ll most likely prescribe me Lyrica.

But In The Mean Time, is there any diet regulations i need to make? I’m already on a restricted diet for My endometriosis and was wondering if any further diet restrictions for Fibro that could be helpfull as well?

My Lupron Shot hasn’t effected me at all. but i think it might have; but i haven’t even noticed because i think my problem is more IBS than endo. I’m Going Pure Organic Vegan Everything Today.(I’m already GF, soy free,dairy free,etc.) I Don’t care how much ill make myself suffer but my body is going to thank me in the long run. speaking of running, ill be forcing myself to do that too (today hopefully.)

The Body Is Your Temple and With it comes sacrifices and I’m willing to do anything for mine to function properly. I’ve Absolutely had it with being sick. Wish Me Luck.

wow, i feel like a failure. a huge failure, i didn’t go to school today because of the pain.i really wanted to though & lately i have been going a lot more, and I’m proud…but i couldn’t do it. my entire body was sore and my upper right ribs had a stabbing pain in them, as well as my chronic sines headache due to lupron side effects?. and I’m still experienceing the pain, except i can sit up now. i don’t even know whats going on with me anymore, if its the IBS, the Endometriosis, the Whatevers… I Cant Tell Them Apart And I’m honestly scared out of my fucking mind about it.  I’m scared, i do want this all to end, but not knowing the source of the problem, i don’t think i cant work on whatever i need to to improve myself.

 My diet is still a challenge and I’m constantly working at it. & Ive tried going to nutritionists, but they always suggest bringing the food back into my diet or limit it even more than it is. I Don’t know what to eat, & i don’t know how to get my life back. All I Want is my Life Back & the ability to control it.

i feel like the youngest old lady ever, my bones kill. i feel like i have arthritis maybe. and i just wish the positive effects of my lupron shots would kick in. i know. patience but Ive been on it for almost a month and I’m only experiencing the beautiful weight gain, bone brittleness, moody attitudes, breast growth and heat flashes. I’m just so exhausted, and my irons low too so my hair is falling out, - because of my Endo Diet and My family’s lifestyle its impossible to get ATON of iron in it with me being able to eat it. i feel male nourished. or something like that. Life’s been so exhausting  lately.

This Superbowl Ill Be Savoring my taste buds on Gluten-free Garlic Bread and Turkey meatballs. Ive never been this excited about food before.

i have never craved “gross” food in such a long time.well, its gross for your body but fucking delicious on your taste buds. i miss pizza so much. and being on my endo diet  makes me feel so empty and unsatisfied. i miss being bloated from food, instead of my endometriosis and IBS. My Emotions want food. i want something cheesy so i can be comforted from myself. god. this is a mourning process.

http://mrsblondieskitchen.blogspot.com/

I’m looking forward to trying some of these foods. :)

At School,I went down to the nurse and asked her to call my mom so she can pick me up from school because of these awful stomach cramps. These kids were thereand asked me if i was sick i nodded and they said “i hope you get better”.I Smiled Politely and said thank you. i know one of the kids, Justin, has awful chronic headaches. The other kid just thought i was faking. but i don’t think either of them are aware of my situation. once i got home. i realized i cant get better because there isn’t a cure to endometriosis.

Diet tends to help allot especially with this and IBS (which i also have) . I Have Been Successfully been on A Gluten Free Vegan Diet for a week now, I’m really proud of myself. but I’m not so sure if this will help me dramatically since I’ve tried this in the past