endometriosis, fibromyalgia, IBS, chronic pain stress, frustration, and an ounce of hope.this sums me up, if any further questions; ask me about it. ♥
So Another Death happened in my town, its starting to get depressing. i usually don’t know the people but my peers are doing a lot of mourning. Usually it’s a lot of teen deaths-suicide or violence related. Its awful know how you wonder “who’s going to be next” etc. And Its Super Weird because no matter how depressed and emotionally unstable i am, I’ve Made it this far. I’d Just Love To see This Town Go ONE YEAR without a death.
Is That Too Much To Ask?
its been difficult lately, and its been getting me thinking. Throughout all the deaths and suicides of our fellow classmates, why do we continue to be selfish and insensitive? People take so many things for granted and regret it once its gone. But even though we are just human, why don’t we bother to improve ourselves, for the sake of well being of ourselves AND others. If We are Deceased or not, judgement is still in full factor. Learn Some respect people, and maybe we’ll stop falling into holes like we are.
Within the past two years, My Home Town has lost 5 fellow beloved classmates. With Them, i am waiting for the world to be a more understanding, less discriminating place.
I Was Doing Wonderful, until 5th period hit. i really needed pain medication- i had a huge IBS/Endo Flare Up. Luckily for Me, my mom’s car broke down last week- its officially dead. So She Could Not Bring Me My Meds, nor take me home. & Now I Continue To Cramp and think that I’m dying, i realized I’m on my period today as well, i wouldn’t be so upset if it was a normal thing, but thanks to BC Ive been off it for a solid two years. add-back therapy is starting too suck. Well At Least I’m Out Of School, Today the Hallways Smelt like skunk sausage and weed.
I Told Him I Missed Him, And Asked If He Would Come back. Between the Empty walls and my Breathing, I felt as if he were gone all over again, && He’s No Longer Watching Over Me. I Think its About Time To Move On, but my heart wont let me.
The Band Perry - If I Die Young.
every time. i listen to this song it reminds me of you. i sing along with a raspy unflattering voice so i don’tbegin to cry. its been 5 months too long without you. where ever you are;heaven or hell, i hope you still know i love you. Everyone Misses you By the way.
When I’ll die, I’ll go to Heaven becuase I’ve already spent my time in Hell.
so dont tell me i didnt love him when he was alive. becuase i loved him alot more than you would ever know.
I’m Going through my old poems I wrote in My Shakespeare Class Since School Ended today. I Found The Poem That I Wrote About Zack Before He Died. & As Famous as Shakespeare Did His Foreshadowing, So Did I. But of Course. I Only Meant It to be Metaphorically. >
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The Night Has Passed Its Mood Unto me
I Grieve alone as Hope Hides In Corners, Behind Trees
A Sweet Trespasser,Grateful thief
There for me Before My Midnight Sleep
Trespassing through my Mind, Stealing what was nearly beating
His Heart by mine, hand in hand
What pain lays in me, He Listens To Understand
cheek to cheek, laughter spreads as The sun will rise
Elevate the glee, days continue with happy compromise
the night will be my fault, as he sings a song of warm defeat.
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That Night He texted Me, wondering how i was doing. He wasn’t always there, but he was for me. I was suffering deep depression from chronic illnesses and whatever they haven’t found out about me yet,and he always had helped me get through it. So we started To Hang Out again, we loved each other.&& I miss Him.
I Hate To Be So Melancholy About This, But He Was A Blessing to Everyone Who Knew Him.♥
Rest In Peace Zachary Nathan Ortiz. 1.3.1996-4.16.2011
