Dealing with myself &

I Have a thing for dry shampoo. since washing my hair isnt always the easiest thing because of my fibromyalgia. but most dry shampoos suck and they’re really white and my hair is dark. so i found this DIY

http://blog.freepeople.com/2012/10/diy-dry-shampoo-dark-light-hair/

So Now; my hair wont look greasy and it’ll also smell like chocolate.

My Birthday ended up being a lot better than i thought it was going to be. like- i had my pain moments but no major flare-ups. which was wonderful.

I Ended up going to a local German Restaurant with my family and ate my tummy tired. but the food was amazing. i kind of cheated on my diet though but it was worth it (i wont be saying that tomorrow though. aha)  I Absolutely Love Alligator. Duck. and Lamb. And Every other meat that Vegans would throw red paint on me for eating.aha but i don’t know. it was just fantastic

and my birthday presents were pretty rad. because i get excited over the littlest things sometimes. like the goat milk soap i got that smells like lavender mint. just MMmmmm! and My Mom Got Me These Slipper Things. Called “Hot Booties” and i adore them. you put them in the microwave then put them on your feet and they’re just magic. (lately i’ve been having freezing and achy feet because fibromyalgia I’m guessing? but i don’t know its been awful. )

I’m Just So Thankful for the gifts the food and the family that i got to be around with today.I Laughed and smiled so much; more than i have in months. without them i dont think  today would’ve been so wonderful. i love my family. so much.

i cant believe it but i finally made progress on my run tonight. i went further with shorter/fewer breaks. I’m literally. so happy. aha i feel so accomplished. because lately I’ve been so down on myself, that and Ive been achy which i think is a side affect from something I’m on… But i did it!

But I’m not anywhere close to being ready for cross country yet. practice starts soon and i KNOW i wont be able to be on the team (well technically they cant kick me off since no one signs up for it… aha.) But the sport is demanding just like any other. and i know my body isn’t ready yet but I’m not going to give up too soon. I’m going to practice until i cant handle it anymore. Its Not Quitting time yet.

& i wont be stopping even if i do drop myself from the team…still going to be running because i do have track/wresting for winter.(haven’t decided yet) and tennis in the spring.

Im Just- So Happy.becuase never in a million years have i ever expected to get myself in to a sport, its always been a dream of mine though. this might actually be happening. oh. my. goodness.

I Just Came Home From The Endo Conference. I’m Actually surprised of how many people there were; 80. But like- i liked it alot even though it got boring at points but i didnt feel alone becuase alot of the girls there had IBS along with their Endo. i dont know, i just learned alot. i think ill go next year if i had the chance. C:

I’m proud of myself. i haven’t given up yet. and everything has been an agonizing mess. I’m beginning to believe that I’m stronger than i once thought i was. and maybe i have hope again. who knows.

I’m So Confident, And Motivated.

This Optimism really is a Joy

I’m Getting off now because I’m not sure what to post or reblog. but i will spend the majority of my night drawing and painting, and maybe sleeping. i have a big day ahead of me and it starts at 9am. thank god for public schools and worthless holidays.

I’m So Interested In The World That I’m Not Sure if I’m In One of My Own.