Dealing with myself &

I don’t know why I’m
Still struggling to get to sleep. It’s already 5 am and I’d already be getting up and getting ready for my 3rd trip to Boston this week In maybe half an hour. I think I’ve gotten just a full hour of sleep maybe less. I’m exhausted, my endometriosis has been ripping me into pieces but I won’t be seeing Laufer until a few weeks from now. Today I’m seeing my GI and the pain management/ psychiatrist. I don’t know why but I have a sick fantasy about being admitted back into the hospital For mental and physical stability. I just want pain medications; all add-back & lupron therapy has done so far is cause me hell, I haven’t felt any better being on it. All I want to do is feel better for a little while. I want relief so I can have some time to relax.