it's not fucking fair.
I Cant Eat Anything Without Getting sick. It Doesn’t Even Matter If I’m Allergic to it anymore. Anything i eat causes cramping and agitation.and as if Restricting all these Foods isn’t hard enough. I Hate Having IBS and Endometriosis, They Constantly Agitate Each Other.I’m Literally Going Insane. I hate Being An American & saying this- But I’m Starving.But Im...
If I ever get out of bed today it’ll be a blessing from Satan.
For the chronically ill, details are all. To cope with chronic illness means to...– Arthur Kleinman, The Illness Narratives (via shanghailil)
I Was Doing Wonderful, until 5th period hit. i really needed pain medication- i had a huge IBS/Endo Flare Up. Luckily for Me, my mom’s car broke down last week- its officially dead. So She Could Not Bring Me My Meds, nor take me home. & Now I Continue To Cramp and think that I’m dying, i realized I’m on my period today as well, i wouldn’t be so upset if it was a normal...
i didn’t think today was going to be so difficult. but it was hell. my mind was in a whole different place and its slowly coming back.I Don’t think it’llbe back for long though. i Tried deep breathing,and distraction and i ended up having a semi break down in french class. Besides the physical pain, my stress has been over excessive lately. I’m going to take the rest of the...
Single Girl Swag.
As of 6 months into a relationship, I’m single. I’m not shocked of what he did, I’m Not Hurt. i expected it, it was just a waste of my life really, but. He became my best friend during it, i just lost my trust for him, but i do still love him. which is maybe the stupidest thing i could ever do right now. But. Im Just Excited to work on my personal health instead of relationships...
Yeah. So Its been almost on a month since i got my first shot of lupon. & a week ago i lowered my birth control and added an extra pill. i don’t know what it is since I’m in a study at Boston’s Children Hospital. But ever since i started this new pill Ive had awful migraines. my head literally feels like its going to explode.Is There Anything i can do for this? because taking...
Oh the stress!
It’s truly awful and it doesn’t matter where it comes from. No matter the origin it’s always an obstacle. Lately it’s been just piling up on itself. Stress over stress just leads to more. It’s like someone let hell’s rabbits loose, I’d love to hunting and skin away all the frustration. Sometimes I just feel like peace is too much to ask for.
things don’t really make sense right now, whatever goes its the effort put into it. I’m not going to stop trying because giving up hasnt worked in the past.
i don’t know how to explain last night. all i really understand is that i lost something beautiful. The best relationship Ive ever had ended. but i guess it was more of a mutual agreement, although i wish it never happened. He was always there for me, even if he didn’t exactly know how.We were best friends, we told each other everything. He was so sweet and made me so happy the 6...
i feel like the youngest old lady ever, my bones kill. i feel like i have arthritis maybe. and i just wish the positive effects of my lupron shots would kick in. i know. patience but Ive been on it for almost a month and I’m only experiencing the beautiful weight gain, bone brittleness, moody attitudes, breast growth and heat flashes. I’m just so exhausted, and my irons low too so my...
Its Been Such a Rough week. i cant even explain it but i feel like my family is just falling apart. But Ive been able to go to school everyday, not the full day but its a start. Its Been a rougher week not being able to be on tumblr. hopefully ill be able visit more often.
Even Avoiding My Allergens, i cant seem to get away from the pain. I Think Its Food in general. Whatever i eat my digestive system seems to malfunction and break down. i think i should just stop eating all together.except when i don’t eat for a period of time, my abdomen kills (which is the exact thing that happens when i do eat). this is so exhausting. i don’t even know how to deal...
This Superbowl Ill Be Savoring my taste buds on Gluten-free Garlic Bread and Turkey meatballs. Ive never been this excited about food before.
i hate to be impatient but i really want the lupron to kick in. i got it only a week ago so that’ll be another 3 weeks of waiting. I’m in so much pain right now and its such a strain on my body as a whole. i want to function properly for once. This is so frustrating. i just want it all to stop.
Only Two More Years.