August 2011
63 posts
“And These Scars Remind Us That The Past Is Real”
– Papa Roach
Summer Homework
I hate It.
July 2011
84 posts
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oh my goodness.
im exhausted and tired. and im done with this shit.i want to go home but im already there. i just cant wait till friday and the following week. i cant wait to get away from my immediate family, talk some shit about them and their stupid drunk friends. and actually get out and do shit.
ive been so bitchy, cranky and pissed lately. i need to get out of this hell hole.
yeah.
i mean. Whats The Point Of Being Lonely when there are people who care about you.
Whats the point Of Wanting to die when you have things to live for.
whats the point of me typing this when I’m the one who needs to realize this?
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I Want To Start Living Again.
Everything has been hurting lately. i should start journaling again. it helped when i did. im only afraid of someone getting a hold of it. because i don’t want them to see the hell i’m in.
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becuase you really dont know what you have until...
so dont tell me i didnt love him when he was alive. becuase i loved him alot more than you would ever know.
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The Newer Genration; The 90's Kids Perspective
the new generation doesn’t deserve what we’ve had. sure, they do deserve their entertainment but the minds behind the media should at least create on their own rather than remaking and distorting
the new smurfs movie. a three dimensional disgrace, i miss the reruns of the solid lines of 2D
Extreme advances of toys and technology; what happened to yo yos and checker boards?i wish...
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its really scary being me.
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2pm
everyone’s laying around. today is a nothing day. i don’t plan on doing anything. I’m. exhausted.
4am
why im awake, i have no idea but i just dont feel like myself lately. the cramps, the eating habits, the medications, the styles, and the love. everything feels so different and i know its still the same. i regret earlier today becuase one of my crushes found out a have a tiny thing for him. its tiny. very , microscopic.and he sent me a “♥” on facebook. but it kind of made my night....
Anonymous asked: You don't need to want to be pretty. It's pointless.
Because you already are pretty.
I would kill for looks like yours. I swear.
Because you already are pretty.
I would kill for looks like yours. I swear.
thanksformutton-deactivated2011 asked: Too bad because you're not pretty, you're beautiful
I Want To Feel Pretty.
endometriosis.
You Men Have It Lucky.
$$
i feel so creative tonight. so ofcourse my artistic abilities kicked in. id love to show tumblr what I’m making, but i wish i knew how to use my scanner.but i never get creative sparks like this. This is incredible.
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i dont want to eat anymore
i feel fat, full and bloated.twentyfourseven.
thanksformutton-deactivated2011 asked: I apologize for randomly tumblring out of your computer but I am exceedingly bored so I started looking at people's blogs, came across yours and, well, you're kind of completely awesome
rachiepeaches asked: whats your zodiac sign? :)
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I Wish I Had A Friend
who can talk with about boys, and not steal them from me
who could talk about girls , and not get creeped out by me
Who could be there for me for everything, like i was for them.
who accepts individuality,and im yet to find them.
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50th Broadway st; Beliefs vs. the Church
I Think I Have One. But I Don’t Know What It Is. && I Cant Tell You how Scary It Is When Who You are, they go against.
ive been raised up in a baptist christian church.and it has been hell.
although, prayer has helped me get through alot of my medicle treatments. such as my foot surgery and countless endoscopies, whatever else. but the problem is, all these people know about me,...
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Since Today
i just realized I’m depriving myself of my talent, i haven’t drawn, doodled, painted or anything recently. maybe this is why I’m on edge and going insane with all this intense anxiety. i need to find my water colors now and paint every surface imaginable. i don’t want to loose something this incredible. sometimes it feels like its all Ive got.
“I have feelings too. I am still human. All I want is to be loved, for myself and...”
– Marilyn Monroe i want to be recognized as a strong person. because what i go through is incredibly, difficult. i want to be seen as a person- not a disease.
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&&.
i had a doctors appointment in Boston today.my GI doctor recommended me to see a GYN pediatrics doctor.
for the past 3 years the doctors have seen me as an IBS patient. Ive had pain every single day for quite some time and there was never a clear answer. but that changed today
The Doctor i visited told me that i have to get a Laparoscopy in early September 2011 to see if i have endometriosis. he...
Maine
i just got back home. Ive been in the vacation land for about 5 days and had a magnificenttime with my family. Ive also had the time to work on getting back on my diet- which should be vegan or pretty close to it. now its only a matter of time to teach myself and my mother how to cook tofu. and for me to go gluten free as well. because my cousin in vegan as well, it was easier to be...
I Need To Change. Otherwise Ill Get Nowhere.
Its really Hard to change your diet when you love food and the nutrients. its hard to change in general. I’ve been learning this for a few years. but I’m willing to change to feel better.but its still challenging.
Today Was so absolutely Amazing.
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Hope
I went Out To Connecticut today for a doctors appointment. and they see past the depression and see my underline problem. && i have a little more hope today and its extremely wonderful. Although It a Forty Minute Drive, It May be worth it because I could manage this mess of mine :)
Dear Subconscious
Shut up. leave me alone. You are putting me through hell. These Stupid dreams.. I Miss Him.
